I’ve spent many of my years yearning for a life I didn’t have, pursuing dreams that were not meant for me, all while focusing on the past and future, but seldom the present. I was lost in the nightmares of yesterday and a deeply rooted desire to be some imagined, future self. All that introspection and futuristic thinking, while incredibly helpful and motivating, left me lacking one thing: happiness. I was not enjoying life; I was consumed by work, and I lost so much of myself. I let others define my life. Despite having studied positive psychology, I had a lot to learn about creating and defining my own happiness.
It took a long time to learn that happiness is not a permanent state of being for anyone, and that the happiest people are those doing what they love. I found myself happiest when expressing myself creatively through crochet and being a part of the crochet community. I love the processes of pattern design. I enjoy seeing what others create and sharing that beauty! I squish yarn with glee. Sometimes, I even get to hang out with alpacas! This is the life I love. This is the life that elevates my experience of happiness!
I don’t chase happiness anymore. Instead, I crochet happiness! Most days you can find me with yarn and hook in my hands, scribbling into a notepad new ideas and notes for patterns. It may sound like the most simple day, but crocheting reduces my anxiety, keeps me in the present, and lets me create something others can enjoy. Today I get to pause and enjoy the happiness I have already created!